Tuesday, January 19, 2010

31 Weeks and 3 Days

That means 60 more days to go.

( I have updated and added and changed things on this post about 5 different times. I am sorry if it doesn't all flow together or if I repeat myself! )

I always say this but its true, time is flying by. I don't even know where this pregnancy has gone. Yes we planned this baby but we never expected to conceive on the 1st try. Yes we planned this baby but I thought it would take at least a few months.

I remember taking the pregnancy test and laughing because I couldn't believe there was 2 blue lines. I remember telling Chad and still laughing because I think I was in shock. I remember thinking to myself I am going to hold off and not tell anyone for a few months because they say that is what you should do. That didn't last long as I think I told my two neighbors before I even told my husband. Things like this I could never hold in, it's to exciting and there are too many emotions flowing.

I hadn't missed my period yet but was having crazy dreams so I decided to take a test. Hell I don't think I had, had the IUD out for more then 3 weeks at this point.

I remember the 1st few people I told I was pregnant and how excited they were for me. One of those people is no longer in my life or my families life. She will never be in our lives again. She has brought stress upon me this past week that I never imagined. I have shed tears because I never thought one of my Best Friends would betray, back stab or disgusted me in a way that she has. I don't need this type of person in my life and I most definitely don't need her in my daughter and soon to be babies life.

This stress has brought on more contractions then I should be having, stronger ones then I want to be having at this point in my pregnancy. This stress has put pain on my lower back and given me headaches I don't need. We have enough issues and things going on in our lives right now that I didn't need this, I didn't ask for this and I am trying my hardest to get past it.

But this stress and this situation that we are in has brought me closer to my husband and for that I am thankful. This situation has made me open my eyes and really think about the people I trust, care about and want in my life and my families life. This situation will only make me a stronger person, will only build my love for my husband and will only strengthen our bond.

I went to the Dr. on Friday. They were running an hour behind schedule and I had Alex with me. She was great and I couldn't have been happier because it was already 2:30pm when we got there and she had yet to nap.

Everything looked great and the Dr. told me that the baby is head down! Think I can ask for another ultra sound now so we can see the sex of the baby? She said I am measuring right on track and that things seem be moving along. I did gain another 2 lbs which is expected now, the baby is growing and moving like crazy so I can't really not expect to gain any weight.

I made two more appointments just so that I had them scheduled. In 4 weeks is when they will start checking me and seeing if I am dilated or how things are progressing. I am super excited for that part because then it will just seem so much closer.

I do have to get online and register or sign in for the hospital so they know I will be coming. I will be delivering at the new North Memorial that just opened on December 31st. I am hoping my husband and I can go and take a tour of it one of these weeks! I am super excited that it is brand new and will be so nice and clean.

While at the Dr. I started to get extremely tired and felt really weak and exhausted. I sat there for awhile and decided we needed to get home. As soon as we got into the car and started to drive away I had to pull over and I ended up throwing up all over myself and finally found a plastic bag to finish up in. Thank goodness my husband got me a 5 package cleaning for my car as we took it in on Sunday and had it cleaned out. Not Alex can't say it smells like throw up anymore. I have felt fine since then and I think it just had to do with all the stress. I have been trying to drink a lot, lot, lot of water and my goal is to keep my pee clear! I was able to reach that goal yesterday even though I may have used the bathroom 15 times yesterday and 4 times throughout the night last night.

We also found out that grandpa Mick and uncle Eric's spring break is March 12th - 21st. My due date is the 20th and we are hoping they will come down for a good chunk if not all of that week. We would love the help they could give us with Alex and the new baby. There is no saying I would go into labor then but I can only hope I will have the baby that week or the week before! Might have to convince the Dr. to work her magic that week during my appointment. I am still trying to figure everything out with what we will do with Alex and if they are here when I go into labor that will make things 100% easier!

I feel like I am starting to get into a nesting mode as I want to get everything done and I want everything set up so I will feel more ready. We still have stuff to get that we need before the baby comes. We have time but I know that this time will go fast. My lists are starting to be made and there are lots of things I want to accomplish with my time off when the baby is here!

Sorry for this long, long, long, drama filled post. I left out a lot of details but I had to get it off my chest. I don't hold things in, I wear my emotions on my sleeves and writing things down make me feel a whole lot better!

If you have not already, check out the video of Alex saying Zaboomafoo a few posts below. It puts a smile on my face and makes me giggle! Something I really need right now!

I have to keep reminding myself that taking care of myself and this baby has got to be my top priority and when it's not about me and the baby it is about my family.


Meant to be a mom said...

I'm truly so sorry to hear that you were mistreated by a good friend of yours. That can hurt so terribly bad. My best friend that I grew up with is no longer in my life for similar reasons and its sad and hard. But trust me, Its been 6-1/2 years and I am a happier better person now without her.
I'm glad the baby is doing good and sorry to hear you got so sick. You need to just relax and like you said take care of yourself and little miss Alex.
I can't wait to see your little baby. Its going to be here before you know it!!!!
I'm still guessing boy and I'm not sure why?

Emily said...

I'm sorry you had to go through that with your friend. It's never easy to end a relationship.

Lexie Loo & Dylan Too said...

I can't believe how quickly your pregnancy is flying by.
I'm sorry you're having a rough time right now. I really hope things improve for you soon!

Krystyn said...

Sorry things didn't go well with your friend.

Thinking of you with your last couple weeks left.