Wednesday, January 27, 2010

I am down

That's exactly how I feel today or for this week for that matter. I am not getting enough sleep, my daughter is pushing all sorts of limits, I am yelling way more then I should be and I am so sick of being pregnant.

Things could be so much worse but yet I feel like I am going through hell.

The itching is getting the best of me, my sinus are starting to hurt again, I am peeing 15 or more times a day, the contractions are taking my breathe away, I can't find a comfortable way to sleep and I am just so DONE being pregnant.

But yet things could be so much worse.

Today is just not my day, I am crying, I feel lonely and I would do anything for a day alone with my husband but yet I am the one that only trusts very few with my daughter.

But yet things could be so much worse.

So I let the tears flow, because to be honest it loosens up all that crap in my nose and then I can finally blow it. I let the tears flow because that's how I let go and let the stress just leave my body.

So I sit here and cry but I keep telling myself that things could be SO MUCH WORSE.

I am ok . . it is just that today is not my day!

I am so thankful that my friend Anna was able to help me out on Monday and Tuesday and that my mom has my daughter today!

Without my husband, my daughter, my mom and my best friend Anna I would be lost. I appreciate all they do for me and I hope they know how much it means to me!

I am off to rock sweet Sophie to sleep and maybe even close my own eyes for a little while. I hope your day/week is going better then mine!

9 comments:

Mary said...

I'm so sorry Erin! I hope next week will be better for you. Take care of yourself. :)

Lyr said...

Girly!!! I am there with ya! Totally the same rut! Stinking hormones! I gotta keep telling my self to trust God! do the same, love! :)

Jessica said...

Hope your day gets better! Not much longer with this pregnancy!

Meant to be a mom said...

I'm sad to hear your down. I will pray for you. I hope things get better.

Verna said...

Oh Erin, hang in there. Not much longer. Hope the itch is better, and you will soon feel better.

You sound like me, just before I delivered my daughter 30 years ago. I was having a bad day, and went into labor....looked up at my husband and said, "I don't wanta do this anymore." ya right...that's just not the way it works was his retort.

Hopefully the hormones will settle down soon.
Hang in there!

Paige said...

Hang in there girl! I hope your day gets better! Go relax with a mani/pedi or something! =)

All About Aleigha said...

So sorry your feeling terrible. I hope your week gets better.

kanishk said...

I gotta keep telling my self to trust God! do the same, love! :)

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Stephanie said...

Oh hon I hope your week gets better!

Thinking of you!

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