Friday, January 29, 2010

Starting To


Freak Out

I think it's starting to hit me and I am starting to cry and I might loose it.

I don't think I will be ready in 3 weeks for this baby.

We planned on our tax returns to help pay for my time off and we won't have those in 3 weeks.

I don't have everything for this baby that I want to have when this baby comes.

My husband needs to get the time off and I know his work will be just fine with it but it is going to come so fast.

I don't want that big needle in my belly to determine if the lungs of the baby are healthy and ready.

I want the baby to move right now so that I know it is ok.

I don't want my husband to go to work tomorrow because I don't want to be alone.

I wish I could have a really strong drink right now.


Tina Fisher said...

Okay girlie....

I started writing but I'll e-mail you becuase it might get kind of lenghty.

Hang tight, deep breaths and sorry to say this....calm down.

E-mail coming

Candi said...

I know exactly how scared you are right now. When my water broke at 30 weeks, I was soooo scared to tell the doctor. When I did, he admitted me to antepartum until I had Carter. I spent the next 10 days by myself while Steven worked trying not to have the baby. The morning I had Carter, I was completely alone.

This isn't to make you more scared...its to let you know that everything will be ok. Just like it was with me. I just know it :)

Mary said...

I am so sorry Erin. I hope everything works out and you and the baby will be ok. I'm praying for you guys.

Jessica said...

I will defintety keep you & the baby in my prayers. Just take a deep breath & know that God will take care of you.

Stephanie said...


Everything is going to work out and you are going to get what has to be done completed. Money will be okay and your husband will be there! It will all work out and everyone will be healthy.

I'm thinking of you!!! and praying!!!

Love ya!

Anonymous said...

You sweet girl. I am sorry. Please remember none of us are prepared for another baby...I know I'm not fully prepared. And sweet Thomas will be here before I know it! Lots of hugs and prayers, Ginger

Meant to be a mom said...

Erin, I just saw these past two posts. Oh my goodness. I'm so sorry I'm just now responding.
Honey, I would be a nervous wreck right now too. I'm so sorry to hear about these worries and issues. I know its easy for everyone to say to calm down and try not to stress because its bad on the baby, but I also understand that as a mother you of course or so worried.
I just want you to know that I am praying for you and your sweet baby. Just pray!!! I know it works. Do your best to keep your stress down.
Don't worry about not being ready. I know thats scary but as you know with Alex once you see this beautiful angel baby, nothing else will matter. You will be a family of four, Alex will have a brother or sister and you and your husband will have a second child. The baby will need you and you will not think twice about not being ready. Your a good mommy and you can do this. We are all praying for you.
I'm not at work so I won't get any emails but keep us updated. I'm thinking of you guys.

dawn said...

awww erin, i am so sorry to read about this complication. i know you are filled with so many emotions. i will be praying for you and for baby! try to stay calm and take it one day at a time. hugs and prays to you all the way from me in charlotte north carolina!

Lexie Loo & Dylan Too said...

Thinking of you and praying for you! Everything will work out. Don't stress about not having everything you need for the baby. As long as you have the necessities, you're set!

Paige said...

Just wanted to let you know that I am praying for you! Complications in your pregnancy can be very scary and I completely understand the freaking out..I would be too. Everything will be fine and everything that you need ready will be in its own time! Just pray!!