Sunday, November 10, 2013

I don't ever want to forget ....

These butterflies, these emotions....
These feelings, these giggles....
These smiles.....

Those simple things...
I don't ever want to take for granted.

( a random cabin )

I think when you have been through a failed marriage, 
a failed relationship, a failed partnership, a failed family...

You go into a new relationship with a different view...
You look at relationships at a whole new level...

When you've said "I Do"
and that "I Do" failed....

I think your idea of what a relationship is...
and what a relationship needs...
and what a relationship takes...
changes completely.  

No one wants to fail...
especially when it comes to marriage and family.

But people fail, I failed... and I think... no I know...
I've become a stronger, better "me" because of it.

Not only a better "me"
but a better friend, a better parent,
a better lover, a better partner.

( side walk chalk at my house )

You realize what is truly important and what really matters...
You realize the things that you can and should let go...
and the things that are meaningful to you that you don't give up on.

You understand how important communication is...
You understand how opening up and talking about things can make a huge difference...
I've learned this so much in the relationship I am in right now...

When I allow myself to open up to him... 
he can make changes, I can make changes, we can make changes together...
and because of that we grow together, we grow stronger, as a couple and as indivudals. 

You realize how much you need trust in a relationship and that no matter how hard it is to trust...
everyone deserves to be trusted until they prove they shouldn't be.
but once that trust is broken, my god it's hard to get back, if it is possible!

You bring your individual priorities...
and turn them into priorities together....

You bring your indivudal dreams, goals and wishes to the relationship...
and you hope to share those with that special person.

( montana - hunting trip )

The nice thing about dating at "almost 30" is that you...
know what you want, what you are looking for and what you need.

It's not that it's easier to find the right person for you...
but it is defiantly easier to know what you don't
 want and what you are not looking for. 

I almost think it is harder...
at this age people are set in life...
know what they want or where they want to go...
so to walk into someones life, especially with kids...
you have to have a really strong connection.

I think you appreciate your relationship much more...
once you have been through a failed one...
I think that happens with anything in life that you once failed at.

Once you've been missing that love and that partnership...
I think you realize just how much you want it and how important it is.
because there is nothing like it.

And when you date, you get into that serious relationship
and you fall in love...

It is simply, absolutely 
the best feeling in the world.

For me, being in love again with Bob...
I feel confident and beautiful.
I feel strong and realiable.
I feel needed and appreciated.

and because of that I am a better "me"
I am a better person because of him.

I am happier, more fun to be around,
more smiley, more appreciative,
a better mom to my girls...
all because of love.

( deer opener - hunting )

I feel so happy, so excited and so lucky...
Lucky is exactly how I feel, lucky in love!

I always want him to know...
Just how much I appreciate him...
and the things he does for me...
both big and small.

One thing I don't ever want to do...
is take him or our relationship for granted....

We will have our ups and downs
and with each up we will make memories
and with each down we will grow closer together.

I don't ever want to forget these feelings!
These butterflies, these emotions....
These feelings, these giggles....
These smiles.....

I am lucky, we are lucky...
To have found each other!

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